aku dan member aku..

smlm aku p tgk citer seram thailand..'Coming Soon' serius seramm...thanks kecik sbb ajak aku tgk citer yg selalu terperanjatkan aku...siap terjatuh popcorn aku yg separuh tu..ciss...

the story before it...ptg tu..member aku si kecik ni..ajak le aku..tgk wayang..sbb dah lama tak tgk wayang sesama...so msg la geng2 lain..member aku yg sorang tu...tak dpt follow..husband dia balik jb..tu aku takde kisah le..kan..yang sorang ni...aku nak kata tak ngam..ngan dia..sometimes aku ok..so msg le...

aku: nak ikot tak..tgk movie..citer seram..coming soon.

dia: citer apa? kalo jgn tegur aku dah tgk.. (kan aku dh bgtau...tajuk citer tu...issyyhh! geram aku...)

aku: tajuk citer coming soon..

dia: ntah eah..taktau camne...ingat nak kuar esok..

aku: reply aku before 8pm.

then dia takde reply aku..
aku pulak yg tanya dia lagi...

aku: ko jd tak?

dia: tak g la..aku kat luar umah ni..tgh buat mesyuarat tingkap ngan jiran aku..

so aku pun pegi je la ngan kecik...rilek je la..
then member aku tu...msg lagi..

dia:siapa jek lagi yg pegi

aku: aku ngan kecik jek..

dia:lolx..dua org jek...kesiannya..sori la aku tak dpt join..bla..bla..bla..

aku tak tau kenapa aku leh sentap ngan msg dia..then aku reply
aku: what's so funny...aku pun mmg selalu..kuar ngan kecik jek..berdua..lagi senang...

dia: ko marah aku ke?


harsh ke..ayat aku tu?
lantak le...apa yg nak aku sampaikan...kalo dia takde pun aku leh have fun..even sometimes dia takde pun..aku lagi senang...hmm..sometimes dia lepak sesama...dia yg selalu kene jadi bahan..but sometimes i do fine her just act stupid to tarik perhatian...hmmm...does she have to do that?

she is a good friend...boleh diharap la bila time emergency..but sometimes...she just..being reaaally pain to my ears...tapi mengenangkan jasa baik dia tu la..aku teruskan jadi kawan dia..cume camne la aku nak bgtau...kat dia..yg apa yg aku rasa ni...hmmm...sadisnya aku ni...

aku dan dia..

Dah lama aku tak xpresskan apa yg aku rasa...hmmm..where to start?

Lately..emosi aku agak keterlaluan..susah dikawal..faktor usia ke? Atau...i’m just being moody? Aku akui..aku mmg moody..sensetif...mcm org gila pun ada..ye la..kekadang..ok..kekadang nak marah2...tak ke gila namanya tu?

Aku tak tau kenapa..kadang aku rasa aku lost something..tapi tak tau apa...siapa aku lagi 10tahun..? aku hidup sorang ke?ada famili ke?kawan2..saudara mara...masih ada ke...org yg aku cintai..disisi aku..susah dan senang?hmm...ni la..kekadang yg org lelaki kata perempuan complicated...benda yg jauh dipikirnya...dah tu mcm merepek..hmm..ini bukan merepek(masih dalm proses utk membela kaum hawa) tapi cube pikir..betul tak apa aku ckp...and sometimes..perempuan just nak dgr sesuatu yg boleh meyakinkan dia..buat dia berada di zon selamat...in english..they say..security..(bukan mak gad or pak gad)dan mlm td..a question has been asked...but i didn’t receive the answer that i expected...but..who i am to determine what words he has to said..itu mulut dia..akal fikiran dia..speaking of him..i do miss the old him..who makes me laugh..makes me..feel the ‘ tinglish’ in my heart...but now..the spark become a baby flame...maybe the time is come for me to meet him..and i’m soo excited...

Seumur hidup aku..tak pernah lagi..org yg aku ‘cintai’ cherish me as i cherish him..aku tak pernah dimanjakan dgn luxury...takpernah aku dgn bangganya ckp kat member2 aku...’bende ni..dia yg belikan’ it’s always been me...who..baik hati sgt..memberi...apa yg dikehendaki..mungkin sbb itu..aku lebih indipendent..lebih senang..ikhtiar sendiri..but deep inside just below my ego...i do really need some pampering..cherish me with presents..suprise me..till i shed tear of joy...but i guess..that’ going to be a true dream..after all...

Being me..is sometimes difficult..even i confused with myself..hahahha...sometimes..i can be reaally indipendent...but sometimes..i just being pain in the a**..well..i am a girl..what do you aspect? I do walk like a guy..but still i’m feminin..love flowers..but people aspect me to be..macho..brutal..tak sensitif..but i dont think so..i can be cute..not just the face..but cute in all aspect..he told me..i’m manja..(but that manja not work out...can’t get his attention so much..need to re-strategized..) org yg tak kenal aku..akan kata aku..lasak..tapi believe me..i cried a lot...for simple things..tapi bukan depan org la..cried in my sleep..hmm.selalu la..(tapi dulu la...) mak aku tak masak lauk fav. pun aku leh merajuk..kata mak aku tak sayang aku..siap nangis2... :p..hehehe...tapi cube la..kutuk2 aku..dgn keterlaluan..kang keluar sore ala lelaki aku ni...

I’m not complaining..just using my blog to let him know..what i aspect from him..(if he read my blog..la..he’ll know)..and another thing...everytime i used my boring tone..meaning your in ‘too much poyo’ mode...except for that..I LOVE U..with all my heart..