aku dan dia..

Dah lama aku tak xpresskan apa yg aku rasa...hmmm..where to start?

Lately..emosi aku agak keterlaluan..susah dikawal..faktor usia ke? Atau...i’m just being moody? Aku akui..aku mmg moody..sensetif...mcm org gila pun ada..ye la..kekadang..ok..kekadang nak marah2...tak ke gila namanya tu?

Aku tak tau kenapa..kadang aku rasa aku lost something..tapi tak tau apa...siapa aku lagi 10tahun..? aku hidup sorang ke?ada famili ke?kawan2..saudara mara...masih ada ke...org yg aku cintai..disisi aku..susah dan senang?hmm...ni la..kekadang yg org lelaki kata perempuan complicated...benda yg jauh dipikirnya...dah tu mcm merepek..hmm..ini bukan merepek(masih dalm proses utk membela kaum hawa) tapi cube pikir..betul tak apa aku ckp...and sometimes..perempuan just nak dgr sesuatu yg boleh meyakinkan dia..buat dia berada di zon selamat...in english..they say..security..(bukan mak gad or pak gad)dan mlm td..a question has been asked...but i didn’t receive the answer that i expected...but..who i am to determine what words he has to said..itu mulut dia..akal fikiran dia..speaking of him..i do miss the old him..who makes me laugh..makes me..feel the ‘ tinglish’ in my heart...but now..the spark become a baby flame...maybe the time is come for me to meet him..and i’m soo excited...

Seumur hidup aku..tak pernah lagi..org yg aku ‘cintai’ cherish me as i cherish him..aku tak pernah dimanjakan dgn luxury...takpernah aku dgn bangganya ckp kat member2 aku...’bende ni..dia yg belikan’ it’s always been me...who..baik hati sgt..memberi...apa yg dikehendaki..mungkin sbb itu..aku lebih indipendent..lebih senang..ikhtiar sendiri..but deep inside just below my ego...i do really need some pampering..cherish me with presents..suprise me..till i shed tear of joy...but i guess..that’ going to be a true dream..after all...

Being me..is sometimes difficult..even i confused with myself..hahahha...sometimes..i can be reaally indipendent...but sometimes..i just being pain in the a**..well..i am a girl..what do you aspect? I do walk like a guy..but still i’m feminin..love flowers..but people aspect me to be..macho..brutal..tak sensitif..but i dont think so..i can be cute..not just the face..but cute in all aspect..he told me..i’m manja..(but that manja not work out...can’t get his attention so much..need to re-strategized..) org yg tak kenal aku..akan kata aku..lasak..tapi believe me..i cried a lot...for simple things..tapi bukan depan org la..cried in my sleep..hmm.selalu la..(tapi dulu la...) mak aku tak masak lauk fav. pun aku leh merajuk..kata mak aku tak sayang aku..siap nangis2... :p..hehehe...tapi cube la..kutuk2 aku..dgn keterlaluan..kang keluar sore ala lelaki aku ni...

I’m not complaining..just using my blog to let him know..what i aspect from him..(if he read my blog..la..he’ll know)..and another thing...everytime i used my boring tone..meaning your in ‘too much poyo’ mode...except for that..I LOVE U..with all my heart..