just me..

people aspect me to do well...aspect me to be happy...in any situation..emmm..that kind of..burden huh?

people see me..happy..smiling all the way...the thing is..that is my way of giving myself a therapy..if The Sya..use shopping..i'm doing the smile n laugh...the cheapest way...to kick out the sorrow n unhappiness...if people...truly understand me...they know when i'm not..in my 'usna mode'..

i have my time..which i regret...i can do better than that..but maybe i'm not meant to have the glory...i need to reflect myself for what i have done..rite now..if i'm a cartoon..i sure have dark clouds over my head...

hmmm...i'll wanna be busy this few days...just to ignore the regret mood...argghhh..life can soo much...pain..

sometimes life also about making choices...yess..the hard one..have u been in the spot..when u can't have both? u have to choose? i'm going to be in that spot...hate it..why cant anyone understand the dilemma..cant anyone help me..to go through that? hmmm...who i shud choose? love or obligation? to choose when look upon those eyes...its hard...

i dont want to grow up! ~ but kinda too late to ask for that...huh?

aku dan selasa

pagi ni..sejuuukkk sgt...setalah sekian lama aku tak 'brrrrr' lepas mandi..hari ni br terasa....dan first time aku meredah highway bertol diwaktu pagi pada hari weekdays...hoh! tak jam...tapi jalan sebelah jamm...kesian..kesian...

so lepas aku melalu saat2 gentar...aku pun pulang...mak aku siap tertido..dlm keta..seb baik dia bwk bekal...ada roti...air nescafe air masak dan air milo...aku dah tak sabo nak balik tido...hahahhaha...mmg ye pun..balik terus tido...kuikuikui...nyaman tul...then dpt lak msg2 dan phone call...wish luck..tanya apa citer...dan sumenya aku jwb..kalo ada rezeki ada le..hehehhee...

sbrnnya aku tak tau nak citer apa...hahahhaha...besok kerja...hmmm.dah menimbun kerja tunggu aku tu...dah boleh fokus...dah...

aku dan kawan2...

hmmm...aku tertarik nak bercerita ttg satu topic yg one of my fren letak kat blog dia..the sya kind of upset with her friend yg lupa kat dia time tgh bercinta...but when cinta membunuhnya...then carik balik kawan yg dilupakan..

to tell u the truth..it happen to me...tapi aku tak sedar ttg tu...aku tak sedar pun aku dah wat kawan2 kecik ati..pada masa tu..aku pikir..dia la segalanyaa...itu masa mula2..la..tapi bila dah lama2..tu..dah terbiasa tau..time is spend only for love and only with love..and sometimes...i have to spend most of the time with love...in the end..kawan2 yg buat kita happy tu..kind of put away...maafkan aku kawan2...aku tak sengaja...wat kau begitu..

tapi utgnya aku ada kawan2..yg memahami aku...they didn't left me when i'm broken n fallen apart..so from that point..i know who i shud put at the first place..my friends...my love is at the special place...dan...its a bonus if u fall in love with best friend..yeay!..memahami dan memberi ruang...

mmg susah nak bhgkan masa dan buat sume org happy..tapi bila semua org..happykan org lain..sedikit..demi sedikit..spt kecik happy kan aku sikit...ali happykan aku sikit..kibod happykan aku sikit..rdill happykan aku sikit..so..bila total up..yeay...i'm very happy..betul tak..? kita tak boleh harapkan kawan itu akan sentiasa happykan kita..dgn byknya..cukup sedikit...sbb kawan2 tu bukan la hakmilik kita mutlak..dia pun manusia biasa yg punya keinginan dan jugak org lain yg berkongsi udara...

so treasure ur friend..u'll never know when u might need it...

mak aku yg merajuk

haa...mak korang ada merajuk? yesss mak aku selalu merajuk ngan aku...jahat ke aku? hahahhaha...

happen last friday...lepas keje aku dah bwk abah g bank..mak aku ikot sekali la..aku mata dah ngantok..so ajak borak pun nak taknak aku jawab...then kakak aku call..'na tolong anto aku balik boleh?' hmmm...drive lagi..so balik jek..aku terus tido..smentara tunggu time kakak aku balik...then..aku jerit..'mak..na pegi dulu' sbb mak aku tgh masak2..siapkan bekal abah aku g buke posa kat surau nanti..

so balik dari anto kakak aku...mak aku dok luar rumah..smbil makan buah dukong..(mcm buah langsat la...) smbil minum air kelapa (ada org bagi dia..masa g pasar malam depan umah)

aku ckp : 'aik..duk luar..apasal tak duk dalam?'
mak aku jawap : aku tunggu ko..tak balik2...
aku ckp : la..na kan g umah miza...bukan g mana2 pun
mak aku jawap : mak tadi siap2kan bekal abah..aku tungggu la ko..biasa amik miza..patah balik umah..amik aku..tak sampai2..smpai kul 7..
aku ckp : la..mak tunggu ke..mak nak ikot?
mak aku ckp : haa..ye le..

smbil mak aku merajok...dia duduk kat lur..smpai kul 9.30..pastu aku call kakak aku..suruh bwk anak dia dtg umah...'ko mesti bwk anak2 ko dtg sini..mak majok td..nak ikot..'

hahahhaha...comel tul mak aku ni..majok2 ngan aku lak..hiihihi..
camne agaknya..kalo aku dok jauh dari mak abah eah? hmmm..takpe..aku malas nak pikir..bila masanya tiba..keputusan dpt dibuat...kalo tak..aku tak kawin le...

me n annoy?

hmm..dah lama tak update blog...so upon people request...i wrote something..

these few days..i wear heels so..i wont feel awkward or tired when i'm going to 'the interview' hope goes well next week...even i dont feel nervous when taking my exams.. the thing is..i dont usually wear my heels to work..only to weddings..so.people at was like 'haa...today wearing heels...kek kok kek kok' -->that was supposed to be the sound effect when u wear heels...LOL...

how do u handle people who annoy u?
this is what i do :

- just make fun of him/her :: do your best to make jokes about him..and make sure u had the best laugh..even if its not that funny..
- try repeat the same dialog that he said..every 30 mins..in ur conversation try to slide in the dialog that annoy u..
- try to confused him :: just said u cant hear and make him repeat himself while u ask like a confused kind of question...
-and the best solution ever...just IGNORE him...if ure in a conversation..dont even look at him..hahahhaha...

so few things i want to highlight..since i've been annoyed today! good luck!